On My Way To Heaven

Jesus had to walk on the road to Calvary day by day, suffering, praying, seeking times of solitude. He had to face the cross. He had to drink the cup of wrath which God had set before Him.

He walked willingly the hard road to Calvary, and he said He wanted us to walk along with Him, if we wanted to save our lives; if we wanted to live, first we had to die.

I have been walking slowly these days, reading, pondering, praying, and I must admit that my flesh doesn’t want to walk the road to Calvary, my flesh wishes that I could go straight from Palm Sunday to Resurrection Day; or even more, from Christmas to Resurrection day.

O, and how many sermons I heard about this for many years, never the cross always the life. Never self-denial, always joy. Never the cross, always the victory.

And how I missed so many years of riches, the riches that are only found on the cross, the love and wrath of God together, in one event, in one moment, in One person. I must bow in awe, I see my sinfulness, I can’t fully understand this kind of love. Dying on the cross for my sins. That surpasses my whole understanding, his infinite grace is beyond my comprehension. So I bow down, and quietly I gaze upon the cross.

My Savior on the cross.

My sins over Him.

He is there, naked, bearing the wrath meant for me.

Resurrection is coming, but not today. It is still ahead, some more days before that great event. Jesus had to walk first the Road to Calvary.

That is what I must stop today as well and wait, and ponder He is still on the Road to Calvary.

My flesh, again, doesn’t want to walk that road, doesn’t want to gaze at the cross, so I pray…

“Lord, please, have mercy on me, and lead me to the cross and open my eyes that I might see my own sinfulness, draw me to the cross, and help me live a life of self-denial. Help me to bear my cross and follow thee”

One, day I will be fred from this body, I will be in Heaven, but not yet, not today.

Today I am still here, on this earth, wearing clothes and shoes, walking under the sun. Today I am still on the Road to Calvary learning to die to myself, in my every day life.

Today, I am still here gazing at His love, gazing at the cross.

“And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.”

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