On My Way To Heaven

I have found myself asking this question lots of times to little children, and it seems that many adult friends around us ask that same questions to my kids very often, it seem that we like to use that question as an ice-breaker; but today it has been different, I have several children, one is too little to know about the future, and another one is big enough to spend several hours collecting information about different colleges . And in between the two, without expecting it, I found myself. The question was for me. Perhaps to break an ice in me….

What do I want to be when I grow, grow up?

It is the first time that I ask myself this question. I thought I was already a full-grown up, full mom, full wife, faithful homeschooler. I am so  happy, so blessed where I am now in my life, do I really need to think about this?

God willing, I will live many more years. What do I want to be when I grow up?

Thinking in the night, in my heart, I consider my life, my marriage, my children. I pray.

I want to grow up….to grow old holding my Bible, lest I fall.

Grow up…holding my husband’s hand. Feeling his embrace. I do not want to feel the cold.

Grow …grow, grow, grow…leave behind the child like attitudes that  hinder my walk.

Grow up…to be a woman of God. To be wise.

Grow up..and don’t grow weary.

Grow in patience.

Grow in self-control. Grow up, and be quiet.

Grow up…

Only the Lord can make me grow. It is only in you, O Lord, that I can find hope.

God gives the growth.

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